Losing The Music

I have really been struggling for about three weeks now. I have been very bla. Music has had no real emotional attachment for me. It has been a while since I have found myself singing in the morning. Before the three weeks music would motivate me or make me feel different emotions. My procrastination has been really bad, and I have even found myself struggling to get up early in the morning. I have not been as on the ball as I like to be. When it comes to work I have also been struggling. It has been very challenging for me to figure out what to do to help the children I am working with, to reach there goals. Even as I sit here trying to write this I find myself struggling to complete a thought, and even to make my brain engage any thoughts. For a very long time I have been struggling with myself because I know what I need to do but for some reason I almost never do it. It is like knowing I am not to touch something or I will hurt myself. And then just sitting there and watching myself reach out as I yell stop, stop, but I still touch it. I am getting extremely frustrated with being me. Now don’t start emailing me yet. I do understand and believe that I am a good person with amazing potential. This is one of the reasons that I am so frustrated. Sometimes I wonder how much longer I can live with being me. I know what I want and how to do it. I just can not figure out how to get myself to achieve this.

Problems as Opportunities

"When we see problems as opportunities for growth, we tap a source of knowledge within ourselves which carries us through." - Marsha Sinetar, Writer

In my wallet?

So I have decided to use a new strategy to help keep me on track. In my Palm case, which is also my wallet. I have placed a card. For me to get at money or my debit cards, I have to move it. On this card I have written a quote to help me remember what my goals are and to inspire me. Also at the very bottom I have written "Will it help you get to your goal?" This is for me to ask myself before I buy something. It will help me with my health and financial goals. I am going to change the quote at least once a week. To help and keep this card fresh and to stop me from getting use to it. Right now the quote I have on the card is "The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person’s determination." This is a famous quote from Tommy Lasorda who is a Hall of Fame baseball player.

Unstoppable

"Believe in yourself and there will come a day when others will have no choice but to believe with you" - Cynthia Kersey

Thank You

Every now and again someone comes in to my life and gives me hope. Someone that gives me a little jump start when I am feeling bla. Someone who make me strive to be a better man. And when this someone does all this for me, I must remember to say Thank You.