Is it True? - Part 1

I checked out my horoscope on the internet, and it gave me more like a description of myself. Some of it I agree with and some I don't. I thought it would be cool to share a little bit of it at a time with you and my thoughts on what it says. So the following is what it says how others preseve me.
High-spirited, enthusiastic, and exuberant, you love adventure, change, exploring new territory, and are not happy confined to the same safe, familiar, secure little world all the time. You have a strong restlessness and yearning for something greater than anything you've yet experienced, and you often live in your dreams and visions for the future. You tend to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else and you like to keep moving, either literally or figuratively. Idealistic and optimistic, you always expect something better ahead. You love to have a goal, something to aim for, but once you achieve it you are on to something else. You are ever on the lookout for new opportunities and you are a gambler, willing to take risks and to break new ground. The possibility of discovering something new is what makes life interesting for you. You have great faith in life and bounce back quickly from disappointment and failure.Freedom-loving and independent, you cannot tolerate being caged for very long, and friends and loved ones must respect your need for freedom of movement. Binding commitments and responsibilities often weigh heavily upon you and you may resist "growing up" and taking on the limitations of adult life.You are friendly and outgoing and have a great sense of fun and playfulness. You are also philosophically minded and often quite outspoken about your convictions and beliefs. Sometimes you get carried away with your enthusiasm of the moment and you tend to exaggerate. You are often a big talker, a big promiser, and you are usually pretty convincing. You do everything in a big way, a generous way. You like to have the best, and you heartily dislike stinginess, littleness, or pettiness. Your vision is always large. You are able to perceive the big picture, general patterns and principles, and are well suited to politics, business, higher education or religion.Other people see you as a good sport and a good friend, but one who is not always consistent and dependable. You may also be seen as a wise person since you do not get bogged down in pettiness and trivialities, and are able to communicate a larger way of looking at situations, one that opens up new potentials. You are a person who believes in miracles, grace, or just plain good luck, someone who never gives up on life, and you inspire and encourage others to keep looking forward.Your emotional instincts, feelings, and intuition play a big part in the decisions you make and how you interact with the world, and generally your feelings are quite accurate and helpful to you. Also, establishing emotional rapport with the people you meet on a day to day level is rather easy for you. You appear somewhat sympathetic and concerned, so that others are drawn to you, especially when they need guidance or help.You appear responsible, conscientious, and solid --qualities which encourage others to take you seriously. You are unlikely to present yourself as more than you are, and this humility is often endearing, or at least appealing, to others. Even as a youth, you seemed mature for your age.You tend to suppress your feelings and may even pretend that you don't have any, therefore appearing rather cold. You feel separated from others and are inclined to isolate yourself. Others see you as a reserved, detached and serious person.You have a strong desire to constantly be in the limelight and consider second place already as failure. Very self-confident, you have the ability to mold your surrounding to your own needs and are likely to furnish your home according to your taste.
Now I can't truly say if this it true or not, so if you know me let me know what you think in the comment area.

Life is...

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.


Mother Teresa
Catholic Nun, Missionary
Nobel Peace Prize Recipient

Today I am

Today I am going to be positive.
I will only talk positive about the people around me.
Today I am going to make a difference.
I will do what ever I can to help the people around me.
Today I am going to purse my dreams.
I will not wait for tomorrow, to take the steps I can today.
Today I am going to take the time to enjoy the little things.
I will take time to myself to relax, and enjoy life.
Today I am going to love.
Today I am going to stand proud.
Today I am going to remember.
Today is going to be an amazing day.

A Man's Dreams

I don’t really have anything to say. Everything in my life is going well, so I am going to share some quotes with you.

“Personally I'm always ready to learn, although I do not always like being taught.” - Sir Winston Churchill

"A man's dreams are an index to his greatness." - Zadok Rabinwitz

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." - Buddha

Rollercoaster of Life

Life really is like a rollercoaster. Today I started weight training at my work. It truly is a benefit to have a free fitness centre at work. So yes I know tomorrow I will be sore. Also after work I went for a walk with my co-worker again. Then before weighing in I went to visit my God Daughter. We played and there were lots of hugs. I really love spending time with her. I love her, she is an angel. Tonight I went to my weight watchers meeting. It was a good meeting I am meeting new people and I am getting tips every week. There was one thing that really stuck this week. And that was you should no expect different results if you just keep doing the some thing. This is why this week I am going to change anything that I am not happy with the results.

“A wise man will make more opportunities than he finds.” - Francis Bacon

Another Day

I am a little disappointed in myself, because of last night. I was planning on going swimming. I was kind of excited about going because I love swimming. But by the time everything was done and I was ready to go it was 9:20pm. The adult swim is between 9:15pm to 10:00pm. Not leaving me anytime. I am really working hard at my time management, but sometimes things just pop up that you can’t control. I have set weekly goals on Sunday that all relate to my big goals. One of them was to do something active everyday, so yesterday I failed at that one.
Today is going ok I am at work. After work I am walking to my Council for Exceptional Children Chapter 289 meeting. It should only take me about thirty to forty minutes to get there. Right after the meeting I have to rush over to Mohawk College. The meeting ends at 5:30pm and I have to be at my class at 6:00pm. After my class I am heading home to get ready for tomorrow, up date my web site, and then off to bed. I am hoping to be in bed by 10:30pm. 5:30am comes really early, and I have been really struggling in the morning to get up and get going.

To Be The Man

Today was a snow day, and I really needed it. It was good to just relax and tie up some loose ends. I watched a few movies and now here I am. I know there are things all around me that are tempting me. I need to find the strength to do what I know I need to do. I am going to become the man I want to be. Alex Karras once said "It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more 'manhood' to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind." I have said a few times that I want to become the man I know I can be, and the man I want to be. I want to make a difference in this world. I want to be a positive example to my family, my friend, and to my students. I want to live a long, healthy and active live. I want to be a man of integrity. I want to be a loving husband, and father. I want to be what I feel a man should be.

"First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do." - Epictetus

For Freedom I'd Die

I was not going to write a blog tonight because of how I am feeling. But here it is anyways. I have been pretty down since Friday. Now Friday night I had a great time, but besides that I just don’t feel right. This may sound a little weird but I think I am suffering from being human. Buddhist say that all life is suffering. They try to find true happiness. I really try very hard to stay positive and to keep on track. But I get into these ruts. It is hard to explain it is kind of like quick sand. You know the harder you struggle to get free, the faster it sucks you in. I look at where I am in my life and I don’t like where I am. I do like the person I am. I just don’t like where I am in my life. It seems like I am serving a prison sentence for being me. No one’s fault that I am where I am but mine, and freedom seems so far away. When I was a teenager we had a saying "F.F.I.D." which meant For Freedom I’d Die. Now at the time I was really into being in the military, but it had lots of meanings to me. The word freedom to me meant freedom from my money struggles, freedom from my health problem, freedom from my loneliness, just freedom from anything that kept me back or down. There are times when I would do anything to stop suffering from being me. I hate that I know what I have to do but don’t. I hate money. I hate being over weight. I hate being alone. I hate being a prisoner of my actions. I fight so hard to make gains in my life but some times they seem for no reason. I moved back in with my Mom to help pay off my debt faster, and that is not happening. I took my car off the road to also help pay off my debt faster, and it is still not happening. My Mom has not even been charging me room and board, and still I struggle with money. I don’t get it! What am I doing wrong? I don’t have very much more to give up. I hate money. I make enough money to get a nice apartment and live on my own, but for some reason I can’t afford it. I feel so helpless and useless. I don’t know if I will ever find freedom from myself.

Just Thinking

It has been a little while since I have had the time to even sit and think, never mind time to write my thoughts down. But I am at work right now and I have a little bit of time. So while I think I will type and share with you all what I am thinking.
First off I had the big weigh in yesterday. The bottom line is I did not reach my goal. That was very disappointing. It is not all negative though. I have loss weight every week, even if it is not as much as I wanted to. I have been much more active, I feel better, I have more energy. Most of all I am proud of myself, for the effort I am putting in. I am on my way to much better health.
I have noticed a few things since I have been back to work. It is very hard to get back up to pace. You go from doing nothing at all to a crazy schedule. Everyday I leave my house around 6:45am and do not get home until after 9:30pm most nights. I am finding it extremely difficult to stay on top of everything I need to get done. And I have been very, very tired. Last night I had to fight myself to stay awake long enough to update my web site. This brings me to another topic that is really bugging me. I feel I am relying way too much on my family. I was even told so today by one of them. So I am going to have to set aside time to take care of everything I need to do on my own. This is where I have to work on my time management, and take advantage of the time I have. I am not the best at this but I am going to have to get better. For some reason today all my thoughts seem to be connected. So my last thought brings me to my next. I think that someone in a relationship will achieve more and go farther in life then a single person. It is almost common sense. I think about it in the most basic of ways. If you are single you only have so much time, money, support and resources. But when you are in a good relationship with someone you both share the responsibilities. You have more time due to the fact that you both share the responsibilities of doing things like house hold chores, family commitments, and many others. You would have more money. Two incomes is more then one, pretty simple. And you have someone who is there to support you, someone to share your victories and your struggles with.
I can’t wait for the weekend, where I will have time to regroup. I will be able to complete what I did not have time to do this week, and to get a jump on next week. And if time allows a little time to relax. I just have to make sure I don’t change my schedule and I don’t sleep the whole weekend.

“Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.” Leon J. Suenes

Three Days To Go

It is three days before my first monthly weigh in and measurements. I have been very off and on with my exercising and eating. I have had at least two bad eating days a week, and my exercising has been really bad since the start of the holiday break. I know that in three days you can not get a lot done, when it comes to weight loss. All I can really do is focus on doing what I can to follow my meal plan and exercising. I have been thinking about getting a part time job to make some extra cash to get out of debt faster. I am not the best at time management. But I can’t figure out how to add a part time job to my schedule. With my job at the school board, going to Mohawk College, preparing my food and making my own meals, exercising, keeping my web site up to date, doing my homework and preparing for my students, just to name some of the things I have to do. This already doesn’t leave me a lot of time ever to spend with my family and friends. I would really like to spend more time with my God Daughter. For now I am going to have to just do what I can to reach my monthly health goal on Wednesday, and then go from there.

"If you don't like the way the world is, you change it. You just do it one step at a time." -Marian Wright Edelman

Thank You Barb

Today something very special happened to me. I received a package from Barb. She is the mother of my friend who passed away almost two years ago. One thing she gave me is a hat from when he played hockey, with pins on it. I remember going to a lot of his games in Port Dover. I really enjoyed going and watching him play. I looked up to Doug when it came to his athletic ability and social ability. Doug was a big part of my life when I was younger. And one of the regrets that I will have to life with is that we grow apart. I tried to get together with him less than a month before he died. But our lives where to busy and we could not find anytime. In the package I also received a ring he loves to wear. I have decided to wear it to help remind me of what I admired about him. I feel this will help me now as I work towards before bore physically active. I know Doug is now in heaven watching over all him family and friends. Also I received a letter from Barb. If I was to describe Barb I would have to describe her as my Mother. When I read the letter I was getting all choked up. I had to stop and start reading the letter three times. By I very much appreciate what she said, it means a lot to me. If there is one thing I could let people know, that you don’t know if you will be around tomorrow, or if your love ones with be. So treasure everyday and never wait till tomorrow.

Just Me

I have been very off and on with my eating for this week. I am afraid to go weigh in, but I am going this evening. Last night I went to the Cat and Fiddle for there live jazz music. A good friend of mine plays the drums there every Wednesday. When I got there I was kind of feeling a little down, due to the fact I had a bad eating day. But by the end of the evening I was smiling and very happy. I had a great conversation with a young lady. And no it was not just that she was very attractive. I really enjoyed the conversation. It was a very deep conversation at times, but over all I just really enjoyed it. Sometimes I like to have a good conversation. With all the pressures, time commitment, and fast pace of life we don’t always get to have a good conversation. I also feel that a lot of the time when I am talking to someone I get the feeling that they are just waiting for me to stop so they can talk. Communication skills have decreased. I like what Stephen Covey says "Seek first to understand, then to be understood". He also talks about using the Indian Talking Stick Technique. Both have the principal of that if you let the other person express there point until they totally feel that you understand them. They will be more willing to listen to what you have to say. I have tried this and it does work. Now it is not really easy to do because you have to let the other person go first, and most people just want to get there point across and don’t always want to hear what you have to say. Something else I realized last night is I am who I am, and I am ok with that. I have never really had any luck with women. My brother says it is because I am too nice to them, and women like men who treat them poorly. Doesn’t make a lot of sense to me, but I see it all the time. I have to be honest I have tried it and yes it works a lot better then when I was romantic, caring and supportive. Being a jerk works really well, but it is not me. Maybe I am meant to be alone, to have lots of female friends but never that one special one. I have decided that this is ok as long as I stay me. I can’t just be a jerk. I am who I am and again I am very happy with that. Ok so I just had a crazy idea here. I would like it if anyone who reads my blogs to leave a maximum of four words that they feel would descried me. You can do that is the comment section. If you want to leave your name you can, but if you put anonymous there is no way for me to find out who wrote it. I will not erase anything anyone writes in the comment section unless it is advertising something I don’t believe in. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and for taking the time to post comments. I really do enjoy reading them.

From The Basement

I think everyone has the one or two people at Christmas who are hard to buy for. Back in 2001 this person was my Big Grama. So I decided to write her a letter about how much I appreciate and love her. And that is what I did. Now when she passed away it is one of the things I got from her. While I was looking for a frame to put a picture in my new Zen Bedroom, I found the letter. Now please don’t laugh but I like watching some weird shows, one of the shows is called "Clean Sweep" on TLC. They always say that if your memories are really important to you then why do you keep them in boxes in the basement. So I have decided to make a shadow box with a few things that she left me. I have also decided to share with you the letter I gave my Grama for Christmas in 2001.

Dear Gama
This Christmas I wanted to give you something that would let you know how I feel about you. To start off I love you very much. I am extremely proud that you are my Grama. I really like when we have conversations. Every time we talk I learn something and my life feels like it has a little more direction. It may be hard to see but you have help shape the man that I am today. I only wish that I had listened to you earlier in life. I really don’t know what else to say but that I respect you, treasure you, and love you with all my heart. You are my Grama and I am proud to be a Pearce.

Forever your loving Grandson
Corey Pearce
25/12/01