Breaking Through The Bug.

I think I am starting to get over my sickness. I have not really been hungry, but I have had cravings. Like today when I went to check the mail and there was a KFC flyer in my mailbox. I am starting to notice a connection between food and great memories. For example when it comes to KFC it reminds me of my Father, and a lot of great times we have spent together. Sometimes when we would go fishing when I was a child we would have KFC. Also places and activities remind me of food. I was at my Mothers watching TV and there was nothing really on and I was kind of bored. I noticed that right away I thought of eating. I don’t feel that it is the location but the activity. I have cable here at my place but I had my brother take the TV I had out. There are a few reasons for this. The main one being that I didn’t want to be the person who just sits around the house watching TV, even when there is nothing on TV to watch. Since he took the TV out my house is clean a lot of the time, I am more physically active, and I find that I am more productive. Now sometime if I really want to watch TV I walk over to my Brothers place or go to a friend’s. This takes the boredom away because if there is nothing on TV you have someone to talk to. The other reason I don’t watch cable TV here is there is way too many food related commercials and cooking shows.

"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can't accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through." Rosalynn Carter - Former American First Lady

Obesity Treatment or Diet?

Everything is going good so far, besides for being sick and experiencing a few difficulties with the obesity treatment. Let me explain with I call this obesity treatment and not a diet. To me a diet is something someone would do to lose certain about of weight by a certain time. I always hear about people that are on a diet who will cheat or “reward” themselves with thing they know will not help their diet. The third and final thing I think of them I hear about a diet is that it is accessible to anyone, well for a price. Now for the obesity treatment I am going through. If I had cancer I would not cheat on my radiation treatment, or I would not cheat on my insulin if I was a diabetic. So it makes no sense to cheat on my obesity treatment. You may say there is a huge difference between those two diseases and obesity. I would say you’re wrong you can die for cancer and you can die from obesity. As for diabetes you probably know this is not a disease for skinny people generally. I would consider diabetes a symptom of obesity. Also the treatment I am receiving in under close supervision of an Obesity Doctor, Dietitian, Social Worker and a Kinesiology. You need to be referred to the clinic by your family doctor.

Last night was my weekly meeting and weigh in. I will not be posting my weight loss on here mainly because I know people from my group read this and we don’t discuss our weight loss. Don’t want it to become a completion and everyone’s weight will come off in different amounts. I know I would feel somewhat discouraged if in a week I don’t lose a lot I have to hear about someone who did. But I not weigh in the 300 for the first time in over five years.

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"People think I'm disciplined. It is not discipline. It is devotion. There is a great difference." Luciano Pavarotti 1935-2007 Opera Singer

Here Comes The Weekend

It is Friday, or you can just call it day 4. At work it was a world wind kind of day. We had a civies day and early dismissal for a school football game. Some staff members are going out to a bar after work, but I am not going. I don’t need any extra temptation. As much as I really enjoy the weekend, I am also very worried. I do better in structure so two full days of no structure. Historically speaking the weekend is when I have struggled on past weight loss programs. Even tonight I don’t really have anything planed. Just for the record I have not cheated on my Obesity Treatment. Yes that means I have not eat any food for four days. I am still getting stomach cramps.

”Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.” Booker T. Washington

It's A Great Day!!!!!!

Besides a ruff start to my day, I am going great today. Health wise I am feeling fine, not hungry and I am energetic again. Today I am starting to notice weight loss, and that feels great. I started my night school courses last night, and will start another class tonight. I really don’t have much to say. I do know I am evicted about becoming the man I want to be.

I had a good and busy evening. As I got home I received a call from a great friend who was all stressed because their computer died. Most people know how much it sucks when your computer dies. It is almost the same as you phone being cut off. So I told them I had an extra desk top at my Mom’s house so we went up there and got if for them. I really enjoy spending time with this friend. They are always there when I am feeling down and I can always count on them for support and encouragement when ever I need it. Late night I started my second course at Mohawk. Most of the class I know and have been in classes with before. The instructor and the T.A. in the class I have worked with at St. Mary’s.

The only problem I am having with my Optifast is I am feeling a lot of cramps in my abdominal area.

“Whether you think you can or whether you think you can't, you're right.”
Henry Ford

Walking On Egg Shells.

It is day two, and yes I made it through the first day. I am not really in the mood to write right now. But I would like to leave you with a quote I heard in a movie that I really like. It is from “Coach Carter”.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” by Marianne Williamson

And Go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They say every journey starts with a single step; mine started this morning with a single shake. I have to be honest it was thick, rich and tasty. But that was two hours ago and I am starving. According to what is going on at work it may not be the best day to start but I am. And yes it is now 9 o’clock and I am starving!!!!!!

So I have now had shake number two. I have noticed that about one hour after I have the shake I feel like I am starving to death. I am going to have to keep very busy. I am going to need to keep my mind off the hunger and food. Today a student I work with kept asking me to try his Jello. This is a good thing that he wants to share with me, but it was hard to explain why I can’t eat it. I am also not going to be doing any working out or and more physical activity than I have to. I am going to have to ride my bike home but that is all for today.

“Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.” Winston Churchill

On Your Marks, Get Set...

Today is the big day. It started out a little slow, due to the fact I woke up later. I have to admit that I am a little worried about starting the Opifast Program. Talking to some people just seems to make it worse. But I am very positive that the rest of my life changes starting tonight at 5:30pm. That is when I go and weight in and get everything I need to start the program first thing tomorrow morning. I am still planning to keep on riding my bike to and from work until it starts to snow. Also Monday, Wednesday and Friday I will be in the Fitness Centre for lunch. The other days Tuesday and Thursday I will be doing an abdominal program. I am also looking at taking a Yoga class for beginners, which is being held at my local community centre. The more I think about it, the more excited I become about my new chance at life. While I am at the clinic tonight my brother is going into my place to remove all food from my place. Last night my family held Thanksgiving. I know it is early, but I am not going to be able to eat when the real thanksgiving comes around. Everyone from my family to my friends to my co-workers is very supportive. With all the support I am receiving I will not fail. Before I go I just want to spend a special thank you to my Mom and Dad for all there support.

“All our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them.”Walt Disney

I AM BACK ! ! !

Well it has been a very long time since I have written in my blog. But I am about to start my journey through obesity treatment. I will be going on the Optifast Program starting a week today. It is a low calorie diet, and an intensive educational program.
There are many steps I have already taken to live a healthier life style. I have taken my car off the road, which has stopped me from using fast food drive troughs, it forces me to walk to the bus, ride my bike or walk to where I need to go. I have stopped drinking alcohol. This is only hard in some social settings. Since returning to work I have been using the fitness centre every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Every morning I take my bike on the city bus to work. I arrive about one hour before I start and I go to the fitness centre and do an abdominal work out. After work I ride my bike the eleven kilometres ride home. I have also given away my TV. I don't want to be the person who sits in front of the TV for hours. Along with not have a TV I don’t have the internet at home. This stops me from just sitting in front on the computer for hours and not getting anything done. I have access to the internet at work, at friends and families, local Colleges and libraries and at a lot of business in the area. It almost makes no sense to pay forty dollars a month or more for something you can use for free.

"Sometimes you have to give up what you have to get what you want." Lindsay Doyle